The Realm of Me: don't mind the angst

Now I'm sure you're getting sick of me, I've made the last...two posts in this place which say that you guys are much busier than I am. But I seriously need to post this question because its just been EATING at me for weeks.

Does anyone else, other than me, feel sort of...lazy? I guess thats the best word.

So I study, everyday. I read japanese mangas (sailor moon mostly because I actually understand that) and usually study my kanji (usually...damn kanji). I do a Rosetta stone lesson every day, and test the following day. I go to school, talk with my friends ect. But...I sort of feel kinda lazy...

I mean, I have friends here in japan. But the thing is, they are so busy that I've only hung out with them outside of school like...maybe five times? And I have sado twice a week for a couple hours and I go to that. But mostly, I'm on my own. My host parents are dentists and work really late hours; we don't eat till 8 at night and its usually just me and my host mom and the three dogs. So for a large chunk of time, I'm in my room, reading or watching a movie or using my laptop for stories or emails or something.

...is this wrong?

I get emails and other things from other exchangees and I don't know, I just feel like I'm doing something wrong...I do hang out with my host parents, my host dad and I go biking together, I go to the store with them, go for walks or to soccer games. I play with the dogs and feed them. I watch TV with them (even if I don't get it) but I just feel like I'm...not doing enough and its bugging the daylights out of me.

And I kinda can't depend on other exchange students. There are two other exchangees here in kofu, Gil and Aldo. I would love to hang out with them...IF THEY ACTUALLY ANSWERED MY EMAILS OR INVITED ME. I keep trying to get ahold of aldo so we can play pool together but he keeps avoiding me. and I don't really...mesh with them all that well either...ugh!

Does anyone else feel this way, sometimes? Am I just a screw up...or are you just really sick of listening to me complain?^^'

Alright then, so why am I here in this little webcommunity world...place...thing...

Well MeyRevived sort of talked me into it...so yippee?

Personally I find little use for things like this; I never hold onto an online journal for very long but we'll see how this goes or not.

I don't know, I might just use this as a forum for posting my mindless rambling stories or something...hm there's a thought

Ah time to go and watch crazy japanese television. Splendid.

Nice to meet everyone.

~yein